Too good at goodbyes
It never happened instantly; it happened slowly, little by little.
Expectations lead to disappointment; hidden truths lead to exposed lies; secrets kept lead to a break in trust. Selective stories lead to broken manipulation; knowing them for who they are leads to doubting you for who you are.
Once you loved them for who they were, assuming what you saw was who they are. But no act can last forever; the makeup faded, the act is broken. You no longer see the same person you loved in them.
Your mind realized what’s right for you; it started whispering, "It's time these two roads diverge into different paths." But your heart is a clingy child and started doing the only thing it’s very good at: clinging to the same old lie, perhaps with hope or fear or kindness. Perhaps it knows if it clings for too long, it can change you into a person who fits, as it always does. But this time it’s different...
Clinging takes time; clinging changes. Some changes stay, some don't. You often revert back to your true self like a stretched rubber band. The process changed from loving them to losing you.
The brain steps in and the war begins. It tries to turn off the heart; initially, the heart fights back. The pain is immense no wounds outside, no blood spilled, but the heart is bleeding like a thousand arrows piercing at the same time. Yet, what can we expect from the biggest war a human will ever fight: the war within, the war of change, or as some say, the war of love.
Eventually, the war ends; peace.
Peace is beautiful, or perhaps I should say "Peace is peaceful." As always, peace comes with a price; the price is not loving anyone the same anymore.
It took some time, and time did what it does best: healing, or maybe giving bigger problems than this so this fades behind. Until a new war starts again...
It changed you for good; you don’t know what exactly changed in you; but all you know is, now, you are too good at goodbyes.
Saadh Jawwadh
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