Too good at goodbyes

It never happened instantly; it happened slowly, little by little.

​Expectations lead to disappointment; hidden truths lead to exposed lies; secrets kept lead to a break in trust. Selective stories lead to broken manipulation; knowing them for who they are leads to doubting you for who you are.​

Once you loved them for who they were, assuming what you saw was who they are. But no act can last forever; the makeup faded, the act is broken.​You no longer see the same person you loved in them.

Your mind realized what’s right for you; it started whispering, "It's time these two roads diverge into different paths." But your heart is a clingy child and started doing the only thing it’s very good at: clinging to the same old lie, perhaps with hope or fear or kindness. Perhaps it knows if it clings for too long, it can change you into a person who fits, as it always does. But this time it’s different...​

Clinging takes time; clinging changes. Some changes stay, some don't. You often revert back to your true self like a stretched rubber band. The process changed from loving them to losing you.​

The brain steps in and the war begins. It tries to turn off the heart; initially, the heart fights back. The pain is immense no wounds outside, no blood spilled, but the heart is bleeding like a thousand arrows piercing at the same time.​ Yet, what can we expect from the biggest war a human will ever fight: the war within, the war of change, or as some say, the war of love.​

Eventually, the war ends; peace.​
Peace is beautiful, or perhaps I should say "Peace is peaceful." As always, peace comes with a price; the price is not loving anyone the same anymore.

​It took some time, and time did what it does best: healing, or maybe giving bigger problems than this so this fades behind.​ Until a new war starts again...

It changed you for good; you don’t know what exactly changed in you; but all you know is, now, you are too good at goodbyes.